Shigoto..shigoto

Salam,

dulu2 sy aktif menulis jurnal di tagged. Pantang ada masa lecturer tak masuk lab je, musti update jurnal..hehe :P kenapa kat sana?? mestilah sebab takde orang nak baca... salah satu jurnal yang pernah tulis kat sana iyelah waktu awal2 keje kat company ni. meh nak show off sket..hahaha :D

It's been a while..hehe seem like i like to start my journal with that sentence..huu~

Though it is true, it has been a while since i wrote something here. The main reason is only that i need a place where i can let my thought free.. hehe (and that's only becoz no one close to me are here).. Lately, many things had happen to me. I almost found the one, and almost get myself to be a married lady to a very good man. hehe.. but maybe bukan jodoh agaknye...atau Allah nak melambatkan jodoh, something happen.. And i don't think i could marry him anymore...a bit mysterious ha... : P and the twist is that, i don't think it's totally his fault. somehow I feel so guilty that i can't see myself as bakal isteri to him... to be honest, i really thought he is the one for me. he was really nice,really honest,really caring,really thoughtful...everything i ever dreamed of is in him... emm T_T he was pious too. But as i said, bukan jodoh agaknya...

other than that, i finally finished my studies in BSc Computational Mathematics. Uuuu~ a tough journey i must say.. but along the way i found myself surrounded by nice friends that shares suka-duka together. A three year journey that full of sweet memories to remember.. aahh feel so old already..haha not to mentioned, jumpa geng satu kepala la yang paling best.. ^_^ right after my third semester, i found a group of friend (actually to be exact--> only two haha) that i can call satu kepala with me... for the first time in my life as a student in uitm, i am comfortable to be who i really am... hehe em as a reflection-- > i'm a bit hypocrite somehow. I always kept my true self inside, afraid that no one can understand and accept me. hmm lonely huh? hehe..but that's all changed when i found then.. wani, che ani..love you two sooooo much.. thanks for those happy moments and memorable things that we have done together... huhu..missing u two already... plus when i found him, i feel completed. he completed me in a way.. so losing him means that i also lose a part of myself. becoming an incomplete me al over again huh?... i rather think of it as a test. people come and go in our life, but friends a there forever in our heart. So, i'll think of him as my special friend.

Then only two weeks after i finish my final presentation of my final year project, i got an offer at my practical place as a software engineer. waaa~ pretty cool isn't it. But somehow i feel incapable to fill that seat. and somehow my brother in law force me to fill it. grrr~ what a stress to start my first job with force. The reason is for me to gain experience.. emm and i am thinking "it's my life, why do you have to bother?..and this is not even my field.. I am a math student, not an IT student" .. then he came to me with few advice ,motivational and inspirational words (waa~ looks like he is so significant in my life and happens to be somehow near to me ..haha)

and somehow (aicehhh), i feel i trust his words more than i trust myself... hmm and it's been almost two months now, since i first started my work. hmm i'd like to write about him, but i should saved it in another journal i guess... next week i'm going to Kota Kinabalu.. waaa~ ^_^ to meet the client T_T.. soooo nervous, it's my first time. Don't know what to say and what to do there...

k-lah.... till next time

thank you for reading this..

Can I still write like this? huuu~ dulu takde orang baca, tak malu nak citer ngarut2...skang dah ada orang baca..huwaaaa~ terpaksa jadi sopan2 sket... haha :P